Been two weeks now since I arrived home, after staying away (abroad) for about six years... though I had the chance to visit home twice, this time its different. because I am staying home for good...
Back when I was still there, there are lots of things in my mind that I was planning to do once I am home. But now after two weeks, I have not accomplished any of these plans yet. Things turned our really different from what I had expected while I was still away. And now I really feel lost... Don't know where to start. Have to reset my focus, refresh my mind... and start thinking all over again.
But what is it really that I want to do... I want to be a full time mother to my two very young kids (4 & 2 years old only) But then, I still have lots of other obligations, like financial obligations... honestly, my husband's income is not enough to just support my two kids, and we are staying in my parents' house plus there are debts to pay to my siblings...In short I am financially broke (drowned in financial difficulties).
Back when I was still there, there are lots of things in my mind that I was planning to do once I am home. But now after two weeks, I have not accomplished any of these plans yet. Things turned our really different from what I had expected while I was still away. And now I really feel lost... Don't know where to start. Have to reset my focus, refresh my mind... and start thinking all over again.
But what is it really that I want to do... I want to be a full time mother to my two very young kids (4 & 2 years old only) But then, I still have lots of other obligations, like financial obligations... honestly, my husband's income is not enough to just support my two kids, and we are staying in my parents' house plus there are debts to pay to my siblings...In short I am financially broke (drowned in financial difficulties).